She opened her eyes, waiting for her heartbeat to...
She opened her eyes, waiting for her heartbeat to slow, lying under several blankets in a room in Castle Borso
Alienor, who was the same age as Catriana's worn, tired motherIt truly was not fairWhy should she be carrying such guilt, seeing such sad, hurtful images in her sleep, for having gone away? Why, when it was her mother who had given her the ring when she was fourteen, in the year the baby diedThe ring that marked her as from Tigana and by the sea for anyone who knew the ancient symbols, and for no one else
The ring that had so marked her for Alessan bar Valentin two years ago when he and Baerd had seen her selling eels and fresh-caught telanquy in Ardin town just up the coast from the village
She had not been a trusting person at eighteenShe could not have said, then or now, why she'd trusted the two of them and joined them for that walk upriver out of town when the market was doneIf pushed to an answer she would have said that there was something about Baerd that had reassured her
It was on that walk that they had told her about her ring and about Tigana, and the axis of her life had tilted another wayA new running of time had begun from that moment, and with it the need to know
At home that evening after louis vuitton gold handbag dinner, after the boys had gone to bed, she told her parents that she now knew where they were from, and what her ring meantAnd she asked her father what he was going to do to help her bring Tigana back, and what he had been doing all these yearsIt was the only time in her life she'd ever seen her mild, innocuous father in a rage, and the only time he'd ever struck her
Her mother wept Her father stormed about the house in the awkward manner of a man unused to raging, and he swore upon the Triad that he'd not taken his wife and daughter away before the Ygrathen invasion and the fall only to be sucked back into that ancient grief now
And thus had Catriana learned the second thing that had changed her life
The youngest of the boys had begun cryingHer father had stomped out then, slamming the door, rattling the windowsCatriana and her mother had looked at each other in silence a long time while a frightened child gradually subsided in the loft above their headsCatriana held up her hand and showed the ring she'd worn for the past four yearsShe had looked a question with her eyes, and her mother had nodded once, not weeping nowThe embrace they exchanged was one they both expected to be their last
Catriana had found rolex diamond watch Alessan and Baerd at the best-known of the inns in Ardin townIt had been a bright night, she remembered, both moons high and nearly fullThe night watchman at the inn had leered at her and groped when she sidled by him up the stairs toward the room he'd identified
She had knocked and Alessan had opened to her nameHis grey eyes, even before she spoke, had been curiously dark, as if anticipating a burden or a grief
"I am coming with you," she had said"My father was a cowardWe fled before the invasionI intend to make that upI will not sleep with you thoughI've never slept with any manCan I trust you both?"
Awake in Castle Borso she blushed in the darkness, remembering thatHow impossibly young she must have sounded to themNeither man had laughed though, or even smiledShe would never forget that
"Can you sing?" was all that Alessan had said
She fell asleep again, thinking about music, about all the songs
she'd sung with him, crossing the Palm for two yearsThis time when she dreamt it was about water, about swimming in the sea at home, her greatest, sweetest joyDiving for shells at summer twilight among the startled flashing fish, feeling the water wrap her like a second skin
Then without warning or transition the dream patent leather chanel handbag changed and she was on the bridge in Tregea again in a gathering of winter dark and wind, more terrified than she had imagined a soul could beOnly herself to blame, her own pride, her gnawing, consuming, unslaked need to make redress for the fact that they had fledShe saw herself mount and balance on the railing again, saw the racing, black tumultuous water far below, heard, even over the loud rush of the river, the pounding of her heart
And woke a second time just before the nightmare of her leapWoke because what she had heard as the beat of her heart was a knocking at her door
"Who is it?" she calledWill you let me come in?"
Abruptly she sat up in bed and pulled the topmost blanket to her chin
"What is it?" she called
"I'm not sure, actuallyMay I come in?"
"The door isn't locked," she said finallyShe made sure the blankets were covering her, but the room was so dark it didn't really matter
She heard him enter, but saw only the outline of his form
"Thank you," he said"You should lock your door, you know
She wondered if he had any idea how much she hated being told things like that"The only person likely to be roaming tonight was our hostess, and she was unlikely to be coming for meThere's a chair to your left
She swiss rolex watches heard him reach for it and sink back with a sigh into the deep armchair"I suppose that's true enough," he said in a drained voice"And I'm sorry, you don't really need me to be telling you how to take care of yourself
She listened for irony but heard none"I seem to have managed tolerably well without your guidance," she said mildlyThen: "Catriana, I honestly don't know why I'm hereI'm in such a strange mood tonightI feel ridiculously sad
There was something extremely odd in his voiceShe hesitated a moment, then, carefully adjusting the blankets, reached over to strike a flint
"You light fires on the Ember Days?" he asked
She lit the candle by her bedThen, somewhat regretting the waspishness of that reply, added, "My mother used to light one, just one, as a reminder to the Triad, she used to sayThough I only understood what she meant after I met AlessanSo did my father," Devin said wonderingly"I've never thought about thatI never knew why he did itMy father was not a man who explained things
She turned to look at him, but he was deep in the chair and the wings hid his face
"A reminder of Tigana?" she said
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